Girlvert: A Porno Memoir

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Neuman, Joshua. "Year of the Rat". Heeb. No.16. New York. ISSN 1535-0134. Archived from the original on April 21, 2008. Andersson, Acme (June 7, 2004). "Adam Film World 2003 Award Winners Announced". Adult Video News . Retrieved February 12, 2014. Last week we brought you a review of Oriana Small aka Ashley Blue’s new book, Girlvert: A Porno Memoir . Our reviewer, Miss Lagsalot, was so intrigued by the book that she immediately hunted down its author, multi-AVN winner and Girlvert Ashley Blue, known in real life as Oriana Small, for a chat about memoirs, life, performance art, and extreme sex. Oriana Small (Photo by Dave Naz)

OS/AB I felt like it would all just go away forever if I didn’t write the stories down. I had to save them from being forgotten from existence. The old me was dying, and it was hard to let go. And all the experience was still fresh in my mind, so it was important to me, still. All the petty bullshit I still cared about, was included. Those details make the story authentic. Pike-Johnson, Heidi (April 4, 2003). "Evil Angel's The Fashionistas Big Winner At XRCOs Thursday Night". Adult Video News . Retrieved September 28, 2014. W! You painted this world in a very gritty, very honest light from your firsthand experiences of extremely hardcore pornography — double penetrations, double anal, gangbangs, piss play, and etc. This book isn’t going to end up on Oprah’s book club. But it offers insight into a world that most of us only see through the lens of a camera. How is this insight valuable to those of us who don’t take part? a b Rutter, Jared (January 9, 2005). "The 22nd Annual AVN Awards: A Jenna Jameson Kinda Night". Adult Video News. Archived from the original on April 14, 2008. OS/AB I want people to keep making movies, no matter what. I think the other girls are far better at it than me though. I’m really not mainstream enough in porn to fit in well with that group.Oriana Small, known professionally as Ashley Blue, [1] [2] [3] is an American pornographic actress. She is a member of the AVN Hall of Fame, has hosted her own Vivid Radio show and written for Hustler magazine. [4] W! I was intrigued that, in the book, most of the way through, you talked about morality and perversion in surprisingly traditional ways and placed yourself squarely into the perverted camp, claiming little in the way of moral rectitude. But doesn’t part of you feel that maybe it’s the rest of the world that’s screwed up morally? You’ve created a life for yourself based on your sexual performances and “perversion.” Do you think maybe it’s the ones wearing the morality police t-shirts that should be considered immoral for calling you the pervert and the degenerate, but still wanting to see the things you do badly enough to sponsor your career through their consumer dollars?

ORIANA SMALL aka ASHLEY BLUE I started being curious about sex at thirteen. That was my break through year. Before that, I was only interested in animals and drawing. I was never molested either. I also think she allows the men she loves too much control in her life (which is why I think she did some of the things she did - it should have been more an exploration of sex on her part and her own desire - the need for drug money fueled some of it). OS/AB I’m too fat to work for Max. I think he has a certain type of girl that fit best in his starring roles, and I am not quite up to par. But if he would agree to be in a Girlvert… that is a different story… He is a crazy performing artist! I love watching him and that’s really all I need to call him a performance artist. It’s not like studying hard and being a lawyer or doctor. W! What do you think of the current move toward features and parodies in the industry? Good or bad? Any interest, yourself, in doing feature roles with acting?

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Blue has appeared in over 300 adult films and directed 17 adult film features. Her performances include the Girlvert series, [1] which she appeared in under contract with JM Productions. [5] She ended her contract in 2007. [5] Blue won the AVN Award for Female Performer of the Year in 2004 and the AVN Award for Best Supporting Actress in 2005. [1]

W! You recently released a book, Girlvert: A Porno Memoir, about your life and times in the world of hardcore porn. What made you decide to write about your experiences? I really liked this especially its pro-sex attitude. I liked that she lives her life on her own terms and enjoys herself. I couldn't relate to being estranged from my family and I found some of her attitudes towards sex strange ( like the idea of having sex with her mom's boyfriend - she considered that creepy and incestuous ). It bothered me that she allowed herself to be actually humiliated in some of her scenes. There's this whole revenge theme in some porn that I hate. I guess every loser who can't get laid can get vicarious revenge by watching a woman get humiliated. The thing is, after the movie is over, you're still a loser who's not getting laid. I suppose that keeps you from killing yourself...but the 'humiliation' should be simulated. Sex should be fun. The perversity of porn is that the sex is not simulated which I get - but still I draw the line at women being forced to do humiliating things. That's the problem I see with having porn be your sole source of income. You'd feel pressured to do things you don't find fun just because you need the money.a b Gold, Jonathan (May 9, 2007). "Dave Naz: The big uneasy". LA Weekly. Archived from the original on June 29, 2011.

There are some contradictions. Her story of her mother and stepfathers (her birth father deserted them before her teen years) seeming disregard for her behavior conflicts with this paragraph, However, as gut-wrenching as the idea of my family’s reaction to pornography was, it wasn’t as powerful as the allure. I have never been a good kid. I’ve always liked being bad. I practiced smoking cigarettes in the mirror when I was thirteen and was the first girl to have sex in the eighth grade. I was suspended on my first day of high school for smoking, then again for wearing too short a miniskirt. I knew of better ways to behave, but they were not what I preferred. Breaking the rules was much more exciting. Porn was attractive because I knew it was bad. I didn’t know how I could ever face my aunts, uncles, cousins, and sister afterward, or if my actions would force them to stop loving me. I would be a bigger sinner to them, for sure. None of them would believe that this was the best I could do, or that it would make me happy. These relatives all helped raise me when my own parents failed. I didn’t want to disappoint them. But disappointment was inevitable. It felt like I was choosing porn over family, and my old life was ending. OS/AB Ashley Blue needs her AVN Hall of Fame Trophy. 2012 I will be eligible! Then I can retire officially. XRCO Award for Best Girl/Girl Scene – The Violation of Audrey Hollander (with Audrey Hollander, Gia Paloma, Tyla Wynn, Brodi, & Kelly Kline) [16] OS/AB My story takes you through the exciting, seedy, druggy, hardcore side of porn. There is nothing left to wonder about the life of a young porno girl after you read this. There is no glamour in this book, so you are completely informed. There is a lot of value to that. Many people have asked me about what it’s “really” like. I think because they have not gotten all the good, gross, grimy details that we all know are there. My book is the one that fulfills the honesty, respecting what makes porn lives fascinating in the first place. OS/AB The merits of extreme porn are higher than any other kind of porn. I was definitely the right girl in the right place when I was doing it all the time. It’s more entertaining. We are just a facet of entertainment. Harder and weirder just impresses me more. But that is just my opinion. I am not trying to force that on anyone else, because it is wrong to do that. I have respect for other people’s interests.I will be showing new work in an art show at The Hive Gallery on Aug. 6th. Downtown L.A. More on my blog soon. a b Warren, Peter (February 14, 2007). "Ashley Blue, JM Productions Part Ways". Adult Video News. Archived from the original on October 24, 2007. It's certainly not a way to get rich. What money we didn’t spend on coke went into the pill fund. Even before the porno started, Tyler and I would foolishly buy “E” pills with what little money we had to spare. I remembered simpler days when Tyler and I were so broke that we lived off of frozen edamame and ice cream. That is when you really feel in love for the first time, when you’re poor. We had nothing but each other for comfort and entertainment. It was a beautiful time. Now we had all of this money. Overnight, we had instant success in the porno business and could buy as many drugs as we wanted. We were still young and had our looks, too. The party never had to end. There were many different people who sold us drugs. Tyler always found someone with stuff for sale. He was like a divining rod in a crowd.